Warning: this is a self-pity party entry. You may start getting the idea that I am personally attacking you (and if you are stupid enough to believe this, then you're most likely the stupid people I am talking about, so yes, I am attacking you if that is the case, YOU MORON). You then may get tempted to borrow "snarky" clichés from your favorite "snarky" idols as you try very hard to be "snarky" in your comments while adding phrases like "Um...", "Uh.." in order to be passive-aggressive in a most transparent manner. Don't blame me then if I just delete your comments and you get even more angry and try to pretend that you have scored a point against me in your next comment, which will also get deleted on the grounds of being predictable and just plain annoying.
I just deleted a long post about Cassie Edwards' plagiarism that I was about to publish because I know that it contains some very unpopular opinions that will get me crucified by the mobs that are always present within a majority.
Yes, I have just censored myself. On my own blog. What is the world coming to when someone can't say anything on one's own blog, eh?
I realize that while I don't have a problem with bloggers, the sheer number of idiotic commentators are starting to get on my nerves. I dislike having to babysit a comment thread knowing that at least three out of ten people are going to be bloody stupid types who completely miss a point that is right in front of them, derail the discussion to argue pointless semantics, or take one word out of context in a post and start a new and completely irrelevant trollish scree. I am tired of envisioning most of the enthusiastically bitchy but completely missing the point commentators as young ladies trying way too hard to be witty. Sometimes having to deal with forced sarcasm that completely misses the point at the same time is a pain in the rear end.
Then there are the moralists. I stopped looking at Karen's thread about Literotica due to the sheer number of anonymous posters shrilly insisting that everyone with even the slightest empathy for Literotica is a pedophile rapist who must surely sexually abuse children for kicks. Once these people descend into a discussion with their overzealous brand of insanity, the comment thread is, to me, officially done for as it will degenerate into a mess of accusations and defenses.
Therefore, the very idea of dealing with such a circus again has me finally deciding to just not to put up my blog entry about Cassie Edwards. I know at that point that some of the things I will say are very unpopular and therefore someone is going to take the ball and run away with it, blowing things up either in the comments thread or in some blog somewhere else until what I initially said has been changed in constant retelling into something else altogether. Having been through three of such circuses, two of which I have no idea how they started since some people just took a sentence or phrase in one blog entry and create a brand new drama around it, I am really not keen on being put through another one. And I fear that may happen if I put up the blog entry.
It's depressing but I think I have stopped trusting that people will take the time to try to understand what I have to say. I have come to expect people to just see a phrase that pushes their buttons and, using their preconceived prejudice that I hate them and everybody, view the whole thing as a personal attack and start shooting right away. I am confident that this is indeed what will happen if I put up the blog entry. That or some people will start coming in to scream at me for "hating" on Nora Roberts, Smart Bitches, or anyone else in the majority whose opinions I may differ even slightly from, thus starting some blog/site war thing that I have no intention of ever getting caught in. And then I will spend the next few days trying to clarify that I have nothing against Nora Roberts, Smart Bitches, et cetera, until I drop down dead because nobody is listening. In fact, I suspect right now that some people will be going "See? She's such a coward! She can't take what she dishes out! Score one for Good People everywhere!" I'm also have this feeling that someone will take this blog entry as an evidence that I support Cassie Edwards and plagiarism, heh.
Well, if being driven to brink of exhaustion at having to deal with constant idiocy, accusations of hidden agendas by people, and other nonsense makes me a coward, yeah, then I'm a coward. In fact, I'm cowardly enough to tell myself that I shouldn't say anything controversial until March at least, although knowing myself, I'd probably can't help myself by February.
In the meantime, I'll let someone else with more stamina and brass to fight. I'll just sit back quietly and watch the fireworks from the sidelines for the time being.